Hubpages and Facebook made me cool!
62Progress Towards Coolness? Perhaps-But Probably Not...
Never in my life...
Never in my life have I been considered cool. Never in my life have I had people that are interested in what I say, think or how I view the world. Most people would look at me, but see over me to someone else. For much of my life I was nobody worth remembering, seeing, knowing or listening too. Over my years as being a socially unequipped human being, I was often cursed with saying the wrong thing at the wrong moment. The irony of this is; I am a writer. Not just on Hub Pages, although what I write here on Hub Pages is what I find the most enjoyment writing, I do have a daytime job (which often is also a night time job), as the ‘Go To Gal’, as a content writer for a San Antonio Web Design Company. I write content for Websites, SEO, Blogs, Reviews, Case Studies, Contracts, Presentations, and so forth. So the ironic thing about being a person that never has and still often does not say the right thing, I am a girl that can almost always write the right thing to get any simple or complex thought and idea across.
I often ask myself, and sometimes question myself, am I really any good? How is it possible that more than a baker’s dozen actually care what it is I have said? Truth is, I’ve never been cool, never been popular, and never even been the first pick at a dork match? How can a verbally retarded gal such as myself, matter to anyone?
The answer is Technology…Technology has made me cool. That is right, technology has given me a voice and I suppose made me more interesting to listen to and hear, or shall I say the internet and Wi-Fi has made me cool. On Facebook I have over 200 friends and on Hub Pages I have over 1,000 Followers (Fans). Although these numbers are not as impressive when compared to others on both sites, I am amazed that these kinds of numbers are associated with me as an individual and/or as a writer.
Simply Me... For Me...That's All...
Is the world as crazy as I am?
Am I really cool or is the world just as crazy as I am? How is it possible that over 1200 living, breathing people care to know what I am thinking, feeling, what I have experienced in life and how I have survived life for 30 years? I am almost amazed that I have had enough to say that has appealed to so many people. I owe my newfound coolness and awesomeness to Hub Pages and to Facebook…. Because without Hub Pages and Facebook, I can almost guarantee that still, no one would have ever remembered my name. This is not a joke, for I know for a fact that my name has been forgotten for many years by acquaintances, by employers, and by school officials. I am also fairly sure that my parents have forgotten it once or twice, but that is beside the point.
I know I am forgettable due to some very unforgettable moments. In high school, I was not known by name by the school officials…I was simply known as the little girl with the saggy pants and flannel shirt (hey…it was the 90’s and grunge was in-I think?). In middle school, well in middle school I was definitely not cool. I still wore rhinestones on clothing then, and by rhinestones I mean, the rhinestones were a part of my ensemble and often included to compliment the puffy paint designs on my clothing. I don’t care who you are, puffy paint and rhinestones are not cool, and I had elementary school kids making fun of me.
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here is the down low on my life...
If you are not one of my regular readers, let me fill you in on my life in a nut shell. I am a mother of two children (2 and 3 year old). I have experienced some not so fun situations in life, many of them self-created. For 12 years I was a walking and talking example of depression, addiction and hanging onto life by a single thread. I fed my pain in an effort to numb it with drugs, alcohol and never following through with a single thing. My kids saved my life and refocused me after years of walking in a haze. I have experienced abusive relationships, mental-physical-emotional, and I have survived them all. I am in the process of rebuilding relationships with my parents, which both they and I have done our best to destroy.
18 months ago, I was not a happy girl. I was lonely, sad and still felt lost. I found Hub Pages-because of Hub Pages, I began to sort through my emotions, fears, regrets, pain and memories through my writing. Because of Hub Pages, I was able to obtain a Romance Column and later a Parenting Column for an online local News Source. Which then gave me experience and grounds to land a copywriting position?
I now write SEO Content for a San Antonio Web Design Company. I have learned more about an industry and more about myself in the past 18 months than I could have ever imaged. Today I am a much happier and focused girl. I don’t only see light at the end of a tunnel, but I am walking in it. I use my life as an example, not for a round of applause, not for sympathy, but as hope for others who have been or are in the place I spend years surviving. I am proof that things can and do change and that you never know what tomorrow may bring until you live it. Survival is temporary; it is what we all must do until we begin living. So regardless of who you are or what you have been through things can change, look at me- I am cool (when I could have never imaged that being cool was ever a possibility for me).
Coolness can be found and bought
 | What could be cooler than a movie with the title BE COOL? Not Much! Amazon Price: $1.37 List Price: $14.98 |
 | Coolness is achieved when your future is so bright that you gotta wear shades... Amazon Price: $106.00 List Price: $150.00 |
 | Staying cool can be such a pain in the butt...but it doesn't have to be.... Amazon Price: $46.20 List Price: $55.99 |
What has lead me to coolness
Taking each of my uncool situations, and there are hundreds of them I could give as an examples, along with suppressing my emotions for over 20 years is, I suppose what has lead me to coolness now.
After 18 months on HubPages, I have time and time again been able to earn and maintain a writer’s score of 100. I have well over 100 hubs that reflect me as a person and my life as it has been experienced. I am proud to say that I finally feel Cool with over 1000 followers on HubPages and over 200 friends on Facebook, along with noticing that a Pod Cast done by Hub Pages on May 20th 2011 was focused around a Hub which I wrote (which makes me feel, oh so special/and if it wasn't for a broken toe- I would totally be jumping up and down in a not so cool manner) . As a token of appreciation for Hub Pages and for Facebook, I dedicate this hub- and I appreciate the awesomeness each has given me!
THANK YOU HUBPAGES AND THANK YOU FACEBOOK-FOR MAKING ME APPEAR TO BE COOL AND AWESOME! WHO KNEW IT WOULD EVER BE POSSIBLE?
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Well, your hubs have struck a chord with many people. And the success you've had is all because of your effort and belief in yourself. Congratulations!
Hey Holly, I can say it's been a pleasure to read your expression of self. Your writing speaks volumes about you and I have no problem with learning. :) :P It is nice to see you taking the steps you need to be taking. :) Thumbs up! :) Thank you for sharing. :)
Hallelujah for the edit button! If only our spoken words had one. It has been a privilege to be part of your journey Holly. You have always spoken with openness and heart and you kindle the desire to create that makes it totally understandable that you have so many dining at your table.
Congratulations on the day job. Keep walking in the light. =:)
Congradulations on
your coolness!!!
Hey, you were always cool, you just did not know it!!
Hi H.C. Enjoyed reading your reflection. Thanks for sharing all the blessings in your life that led you to where you are. Congratulations on the HP podcast around your hub!
well, your writing is interesting from my perspective and other people identify with that. I like that phrase that you one is walking in the light in the tunnel.
I am impressed with your honesty and directness.
Congratulation! Well written and from the heart. I enjoyed this confession and the openness you possess and look forward to many more articles and reflections.
blessings to you and yours...
HCm
first off remember its me...
so..in your mind read this in a very high pitched Robin Williams Mrs Doubtfire style voice
Ohh IM HC Porter Im soo cool..i wasn't cool but now I am a totally hot and cool mom.
i take pictures write awesome things, i am soo cool... LoOk at me with my pretty face and beautiful red hair
ok I tease because i'm not cool but YOU KNOW I'm teasing with you. I think is great you have reached the upper eschelon of cooliosity and are starting to get and be "HAPPY" and you most certainly deserve it but you must always realize the higher you get the faster folks will want to knock you down....enjoy yourself queen of Coolagiosity...
TH
Ok, I'm back, had to get a jacket, put the collar up, just to be in the presence of such coolness. I have to agree with you you are inspirationally cool.
Come on, you were always cool! Great hub!
Technology made us all cool.
Great hub.
dahoglund- and that is all that we can do-never stop learning. the more we learn the greater our gift are to the world. Thanks for the comment :)
A.A. Zavala- Thank you, I appreciate the reflection... :)
Cagsil- It has been a pleasure and refreshing experience earning your readership and encouragement. I value you insight as well as appreciate all the support you offer...So my thanks is to you :)
Winsome- THANKS... and I thank you for sticking around and reading my hubs (the good-the bad-the bla-bla-bla ones) each one of your comments has always given me so much encouragement and perspective-for that I am overly appreciative :)
GNelson - lol, fake it till you make it, right? Just hope no one catches on-hehe...
Voted up awesome beautiful and any other "good" button that exists! You are an amazing writer and person and oh so very cool:) Thanks for all your beautiful hubs and for sharing your life. You have helped me more than you know:D
gguy- lol...I am not so sure of that...puffy paint/rhinestone clothing-red frizzy hair and a mouth full of metal...I was coolness in training :P Thanks for the comment :)
Seafarer Mama- Thank you...I am glad that you enjoyed what you read and decided to comment. The Pod Cast was a shocker for me...lol- I was thrilled, but still shocked :)
ocbill- well thank you! I suppose in that manner, I am happy that I am a little bit off :) Thanks for commenting, I am happy that you enjoy my writing and writing style :)
deblipp- thanks for reading and leaving your comment- I appreciate the feedback... I try to be direct and as honest as possible in my writing- I feel if I am not, I am not being true to myself-and at that point, who or what will actually benefit from reading a single thing I write? Thanks again !
samsons1- and I appreciate all the support you have shown to me over the past year... your comments on my work have meant a great deal and I am so glad you have enjoyed what you have read :) Thank you! Thank you!
TH- Trying to picture this as you said.... But please clarify which Mrs Doubtfire voice...the one which she used when she laid the purse snatcher out on his back...the one which she used when she caught fire to her brazier while cooking dinner? or was it the sweet one when she was broadcast on her own television program? just like to be exact as I picture things...
NE ways. In response to your very clever comment- HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA.....Please! Do you know how long it took to create and how much it takes to maintain this level of awesomeness? This has taken years and countless hours are dedicated to this... lol,
just kidding :)
You always make me laugh with your humor- thanks for all the comments you leave, and giggles you cause :)
mckbirdbks- lol, for some reason I have a picture of Happy Days or Grease in my mind, as to how you appear...lol Thanks so much for your continued support, I truly appreciate all your feedback :)
Radioguy- lol... Maybe I should have posted my middle school photos...then people would understand :P Thanks for reading and for commenting :)
QudsiaP1- Thank God for technology and social media... :) thanks for reading and taking the time to leave some feedback- I appreciate it.
tammybarnette- Thank you ma'am- that means a great deal to me and I am so glad I have you as a reader...I do my best to portray truth and honesty and hopefully benefit others, if i succeeded just in your case- all was worth the time... thank you for following me-and for commenting on so much of my work
Great cool hub! Voted up!
chamil- thanks, I am thrilled you liked it! thanks for reading and for leaving a comment :)
You are so cool!
howcurecancer- well thanks so much for thinking and saying so! I try :)
I've been away for a long time, but noticed this article. You have always been cool in my book, but it is wonderful that HubPages gave you a voice that allowed the world at large to know it. Your successes are much deserved!
Mike
Thanks Mike... I havent been around as often either-work has truly kept me busy, and not given much time for pleasure writing. Thanks for the comment :) You as well have been cool in my book for some time :)
H.C.' like the new Avitar!!
I was one of the great unnoticed for about twenty years of my life, H.C., so this hub speaks volumes to me. I'm not unnoticed any more :) I don't think I'm cool though, and probably never will be. But that's alright, at least I'm not invisible any more :)
Bravo to you! And I agree, HubPages is a fantastic place to find your voice and your confidence. Congratulations on the success you've made of your writing, so far...
Linda.
gguy- thanks :)
Lady Wordsmith- isn't that amazing? we all change and become cool in our own little way... I think the difference ends up being how comfortable we are in our own skin. Thanks for the comment :)
I agree, that's what it's all about, the whole of life and everything! Finding happiness in so many small ways leads to fulfillment, and being comfortable in our own skin, as you say - and when we have that, I think that we just appear to be more cool, even if we haven't actually changed in appearance.
Lady Wordsmith- When I see someone I havent seen since High School (13years), and they comment on my appearance (which has changed slightly) I reply with, I am still the same ol' me, corky-dorky and how they use to put it- lame :) I am just happy with my attributes these days. Change is what we wish it to be-nothing more/nor less...thanks for returning to the hub :)
Hey H.C. I hope you are well and it sounds like you are. Your new profile pic is great. I agree with you about technology, although it can backfire too...yesterday I saw an old friend/acquaintance who is a real fun person in a band, dj etc. but I couldn't remember her name! In virtual world I have become a great commenter and "friend" to many more than in the real world but it's a lot to keep up with and sometimes I blunder through it.
Good on you with your content writing gig sounds like a blast. Keep up the good work HC.
Ben
Cool hub!!! Keep up the great work!!! :)
Ben Zoltak- Hey Ben...SO sorry it took me so long to get to answering/responding to the comments. Yes sir, I am doing well...working hard :) I know what you mean...The virtual world gives freedom of expression without the backlash of reality of when we are not liked...it is a ngreat thing for some of us "not so cool people", but can also hold us back from connecting in the real world. I hope that new baby is doing well (i guess new is no longer the word-since it has been almost a year, right?) nice to hear from you sir, thanks so much for your comment
Sunshine625, Thanks for the comment, I am glad you liked this... I appreciate the feedback :)
Ha, sir, that's a good one, although I fear I maybe old enough to be your dad ;) My son is almost a year you are correct, and my daughter is well too. I have trouble believing someone as pretty and smart as yourself was ever uncool but perhaps perhaps. Hope you are enjoying your Tejas sol!
Ben, lol... Perhaps I will one day post up some pictures of my past and you can see how Uncool I actually was...lol, but thank you for the comment. As for old enough to be my father, lol, not quite... I am unfortunately beyond the 20 something crowd...but that is okay- it takes time to have intelligence blossom :) Glad to hear your family is doing well...and I am sure your daughter has taken to being a big sister rather well :) Thanks Ben, for the comment and for the smiles... :)
Wow H.C, It just goes to show that things aren't always as they seem. When i first started reading your hubs i thought you were particularly cool, even when judged against other really cool people on here. Your writing, your photographs even how you interacted with people in your comments showed somebody who really was so cool and had everything seemingly under control. As you say a lot of that comes with being able to write rather than speak certain things and also through the years people's confidence tends to grow. Glad i found this hub by you. Another interesting and revealing piece of writing by you. And you know what. I probably think you're even cooler now than when i started reading this.
Anyway keep growing, getting more cool and more confident as you go on your journey.
All the best. Michael.
Hey Michael.. Thanks, I appreciate the coolness points and the support... I may not be cool-cool... but growing up made it not so important as long as i was cool with who i am :) :P
Like they said, your already cool but you don't know it..
Yeah i know that thinking, when you choose what to think...or what you choose to be, then that will be the person you created..
And hey lady, your writing is so cool . I Actually like the flow of it. I stumbled upon this when i was hopping somewhere.
what you need is self-appreciation and trust within yourself. I am that, and everybody seems attached with me...
Anyway, your okay! Just stay away from your stinking thinking...pretty lady..
Voted up and beautiful!!
Oh and awesome too.
Princess Pitt,
LOL... yeah, I know... not the first one to say that to me, "Stop Thinking the way you are thinking", lol... I am working on it :)
Coolness isnt important, and I am okay being a die hard nerd/dork/brain/geek... I am cool with me :) Thanks for the comment and the vote up :)
Hi H.C. I'm wearing my shades in honour of your tremendous cooooolness! I really did enjoy your hub. Thanks for the refreshingly open writing and your reminder to us to stay focused and keep doing the things we need to do to become a success like you ;) ;)
Up and awesome!
Maralexa,
lol... the shades are probably not needed, being that i hide my coolness appeal very well to the outside world, but I do appreciate the comment, lol. Heard work is always what makes us really appear and earn the coolness badge, lol :) Thanks for much for reading and for the support.
nice story and end with happy ending with hubpages, may success always be with you, good luck.
teejes- thank you for your comment...i am glad that you liked the hub :) Good Luck to you as well...
I like like writing that comes from the heart. You self expression is is surely from he heart as I can see it. I totally enjoyed the hub. Vote up.
Ian Dabasori Hetr- thanks-lol, yeah, i have been told i am an emotional/real writer. my response was, "is there any other kind?", lol. thank you for your comment, I am glad you enjoyed the hub!
this is awesome, your an inspiration to me now.
this is awesome, your an inspiration to me now.
tschaunerb - thank you ma'am. I am honored to be inspiring. I hope you have or do find inspiration within yourself to be the best at being you. thank you for stopping by and for commenting, I appreciate it :)
Isn't technology amazing? I feel sorry for our parents generation, they had none of this! Really enjoyed your hub :)
MelChi- thanks for your comment. I feel sorry for our parents who are now trying to survive with technology taking over our lives. My dad just told me that my mother is going back to college- she is 58... but she has to because she is being beat out my 25 year olds that have no experience, because of a piece of paper. Sad but true...
dahoglund Level 7 Commenter 11 months ago
I wish I were as comfortable with the technology of it all, but I have been learning new things all my life.