Just Like You

It is just like you

To make me feel less than me

You take away what I think and make me believe

I don’t believe in me-I am supposed to believe in you

I become wrong as I am shown how to lose

It is just like you to make me see less of me

Replace what I wanted for what you say you need

Pretty soon I become a less important version of what I can never be

Struggle to see more-Struggle for a chance

Give up a dream-and realize what I never had

It is just like you

To make me feel less than me

You become more right- as I am shown how to bleed

Left in the corner- to figure out the truth

The truth doesn’t matter-when it comes down to me and you

I’m not much like me

The more I’m with you

I am less than my worth-bothered before bruised

I forgot what I wished for when I wished on a star

Now I am lost- and can’t tell where you are

It can’t be more like us-when I couldn’t remember how to breathe

Now you are whispering as I walk to leave

You explain to me in a calm collected way

How crazy I am, and owe you who I’ve become today

For a moment I pause-and hesitate my next move

Before an insult meets your lips- I hear the sound and know I lose

Nothing within the words-means love or grace

Nothing within your gestures-replaces the lack of care upon your face

It is exactly like you

To make me believe

That everything which is wrong

Is my own disease

I must be crazy- I am a fool

But it is no longer me-

And I lost my place in your world.

Swept up, kept up-

Lost from what I found

I am not prepared to lose

As I make a journey to figure myself out

Even if I can’t make it,

At least I will fall on my own

Something I needed to do from the beginning and all along

It is exactly like you

To laugh at me

To take away my credit and degenerate by belief

Every opportunity you have had to hurt what I feel

Every single moment you found to blame me for what is not real

I should have seen this was just like you

Never caring about me as the world revolved around you

But just like me

I wanted to believe

That there was some sort of truth even if I couldn’t see.

Now it is time to face the truth,

Regardless of what I feel or how it hurts as I focus on you

I must become a me-that can stand on my own two feet

Because I need to know I don’t need you to lean on

After all…all you ever showed me is how to take the defeat every time you won.

Domestic Abuse and various form of domestic violence are unfortunately apart of our history and world. Many woman have suffered through various forms of Domestic Abuse , including verbal abuse, physical abuse, mental abuse that causes poor self-esteem and a lack of self-confidence as well as the emotional abuse that is so easy to misplace and easy to manipulate around. Domestic Abuse is wrong, Domestic Abuse and Domestic Violence cause more than just visible scars. It is often the unseen scars that are not so easily healed that are the real danger that is associated with Domestic Violence. The unseen scars are often associated more so with Verbal Abuse, because verbal abuse is more so personal and disintegrate one’s Self Image and diminish one’s self confidence. Verbal Abuse and the poor self-esteem that is associated with it can be considered the silent way to do damage without the physical abuse and Domestic Violence within non healthy relationships. Abusive relationships always harm and rarely change.

Abuse happens to, too many and many stay because they believe they deserve what they receive. They do not, you do not. Abusive relationships come in all forms, and effect each of the victims in their own unique ways and manners. An abusive relationship has no love, no heart but only the emotional abuse that can give poor self-esteem and decrease in self-confidence.

No one deserves an abusive relationship or this kind of pain or struggles. You are as good and deserve as much as you want. Each person deserves to be someone’s special, and to be someone whom is loved and respected, not hurt for who they are and what they dream for, hope for and dedicate their time to.

I wrote this poem many years ago when I found myself in an abusive relationship that was toxic to the extent that I was kept from being me, from being able to become who I am today. Although my abusive relationship and experience has ended, it was a situation that I am sure many people find themselves in today. To realize that you are not loved by someone you believed you were in love with is a heart crushing moment. But as you walk away from such a poison, you start to feel your soul once again. Every moment after the end comes, is more enjoyable than the one before.

Love should not be hurtful, cruel or make you feel as if you are less than deserving of the very best. As hard as it is and as much as it hurts to walk from a false love- the alternative is to slowly let yourself drift away from your potential of being who you should be and what you were made to be. There is more awaiting you after the end-you just have to get there to truly see it.